God… we've never had a conversation,
like the one we're having tonight.
I've never been so scared to death
that I might not get it right.
I've always watched the bridges burn
and now I could use a friend.
Always searching
until I found everything sin.
I kept circling the cul-de-sac,
by the house of selfish pain,
and with every chance taken,
I'm always standing out in the rain.
I never saw the stage,
I defied the role I had to play.
Each heart was horribly slain
when no longer it could stay.
If there was light,
then it was only darkness I would be
Fought so hard to break the man in the mirror,
my only enemy.
Time after time,
I stood against the world for the shock value of it.
Anything that would hurt me
I would always love it.
Tonight everything's changing
as tears finally fall,
And as I speak my heart I’m in awe
from the truth of it all.
She needs me God, I cannot fail,
though that's what I always do.
How do I overcome while still paying
on Karmic debt that's owed to you?
If there is anything that can be done
or anything I could say,
please help me, for her little heart,
help me find way.
Help me find a way to love,
to change from the inside out.
In hopes that she never has to be
any part of what I'm about.
I have to know that there's something better in me
than this time I've spent.
Making a difference in her
is the only chance I have to repent.
Also, if there is a way,
please let my victims know...
how sorry I am
to have hurt each of them so.
