topless rhetoric spun across the stage to a beat that evoked the pain of truth in me
faultless toxicity runs through my open wounds for everyone to see
abominated and abound by the chosen jest that was so easily handed down again in that instant replay
lost in the mix I wonder exactly what it is that I'm suppose to say
everybody wants a fuckin' piece of the emotional pie, uncaring if I'm left with none
it seems it's all come down to gestures of love in vane, leaving the game without one
bellowed out a miserable rhapsody as the choir joined in to place a bet on the term harmonized
blood flows freely from the veins that should have been removed or cauterized
the romantic tragedy packs a powerful punch just past the punch line
addiction maddened by such insidious lies to the final crime
alone against the wall
this bullshit was my call
tonight I'll cry into the darkness and see past every part of this
my strength is made perfect in my own defiant weakness
so journey back from where you came and fly away
nothing left to prove, your lies are all that's left to say
Sunday, November 14, 2010
the soft kiss
it is time to say goodbye, it is time for the end
no more happiness found now that I am free of sin
it's a lonely walk down an empty street, I can't seem to care
when I reach out my hand, no one is there
left to embellish the past with taunts of returning to the start
making war out of love became my perfected art
only bridges burned just beyond the insanity of yesterday
a voice shouting out that has nothing left to say
so much damage, so many battlefields with hearts left broken
so easily scoffed at the madness in the words I have spoken
the keys won't work on the door, my soul is out of business
my pain is so great that my damnation is listless
only a few more steps to a journey of finality
the soft kiss of death is all that's left for me
no more happiness found now that I am free of sin
it's a lonely walk down an empty street, I can't seem to care
when I reach out my hand, no one is there
left to embellish the past with taunts of returning to the start
making war out of love became my perfected art
only bridges burned just beyond the insanity of yesterday
a voice shouting out that has nothing left to say
so much damage, so many battlefields with hearts left broken
so easily scoffed at the madness in the words I have spoken
the keys won't work on the door, my soul is out of business
my pain is so great that my damnation is listless
only a few more steps to a journey of finality
the soft kiss of death is all that's left for me
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
soliloquies in solitude
we cross the t's and dot the i's
but in seductive darkness we realize
there's something unsaid, something unforgiven
something dead amidst what we now live in
taking it's toll while bringing out the worst
soliloquies in solitude to which we are cursed
embracing the anthem of a foreign march to the tide
stumbled down into frigid waters as in you I died
a burden too heavy and a weight too strong
nightmares made political by such a meaningless song
fallen to the truest catalyst for a martyr's blame
empowered through poverty stripping me to no shame
gone, oh long gone yesterday, the twilight of an ember
the pacesetter for a tomorrow is what I try to remember
but in seductive darkness we realize
there's something unsaid, something unforgiven
something dead amidst what we now live in
taking it's toll while bringing out the worst
soliloquies in solitude to which we are cursed
embracing the anthem of a foreign march to the tide
stumbled down into frigid waters as in you I died
a burden too heavy and a weight too strong
nightmares made political by such a meaningless song
fallen to the truest catalyst for a martyr's blame
empowered through poverty stripping me to no shame
gone, oh long gone yesterday, the twilight of an ember
the pacesetter for a tomorrow is what I try to remember
Touch my Hand Little Princess
Hold tight to the truth and speak upon the wind
So that I may awaken from the depths of hell I live in
Touch my hand little princess, give me the gift of your presence
So long I slept, spun along the skies by your essence
The keeper of life shows me a sign of heaven in your eyes
Every sacred moment you offer up to me a new surprise
Yesterday lost to madness I could not see beyond the night
But you were here with me, though I was blinded to sight
My beloved, my little lady who whispers a dream come true
Innocence cherished in the light I see in you
At an arms length I stay only to keep you safe from the horror show
You're the reason for any goodness that may be left for me to know
I love you baby girl, just learn one thing if you can from a broken man like me
that I'm the perfect example of who you don't want to be
So that I may awaken from the depths of hell I live in
Touch my hand little princess, give me the gift of your presence
So long I slept, spun along the skies by your essence
The keeper of life shows me a sign of heaven in your eyes
Every sacred moment you offer up to me a new surprise
Yesterday lost to madness I could not see beyond the night
But you were here with me, though I was blinded to sight
My beloved, my little lady who whispers a dream come true
Innocence cherished in the light I see in you
At an arms length I stay only to keep you safe from the horror show
You're the reason for any goodness that may be left for me to know
I love you baby girl, just learn one thing if you can from a broken man like me
that I'm the perfect example of who you don't want to be
fear relapse
there is a chill in the air
love left lonely somewhere
tonight the curtain calls
fear relapse as a tear falls
burdened insanity by repetitious results
nailed upon the cross by your insults
caressing pain of such a waste
try to swallow without the taste
staring at the darkness within
where the ending has to begin
loosened breath is where we die
can't face truth in another lie
perfected pain such a mystery
strengthens to write a new history
always another bend in the road
out there another heart turns cold
that is searching to finally see
the beautiful darkness in me
love left lonely somewhere
tonight the curtain calls
fear relapse as a tear falls
burdened insanity by repetitious results
nailed upon the cross by your insults
caressing pain of such a waste
try to swallow without the taste
staring at the darkness within
where the ending has to begin
loosened breath is where we die
can't face truth in another lie
perfected pain such a mystery
strengthens to write a new history
always another bend in the road
out there another heart turns cold
that is searching to finally see
the beautiful darkness in me
Saturday, July 24, 2010
playing with the shadows
paper glass shredded the elasticity of a dream for something more
yesterday's memory left a package at the back door
my true love, you made me out to be nothing but a joke
putting me on hold, in the darkness, after each time we spoke
the beast is broken by the mystery of the night
facilitation of anger against nothing left to fight
and to the hypocrite who calls my angel your number one
keep your let downs because you treat her as if she were none
an embarrassment to nothing because that’s all I ever was
they say playing with the shadows is all he ever does
what you gave me is what I have left to hold on to
distance with no end is all love put me through
an inadequate and emotionally impoverished soul
the pieces that never really fit into a whole
walking into the wind with nothing left to show
holding back the tears in the process of letting go
yesterday's memory left a package at the back door
my true love, you made me out to be nothing but a joke
putting me on hold, in the darkness, after each time we spoke
the beast is broken by the mystery of the night
facilitation of anger against nothing left to fight
and to the hypocrite who calls my angel your number one
keep your let downs because you treat her as if she were none
an embarrassment to nothing because that’s all I ever was
they say playing with the shadows is all he ever does
what you gave me is what I have left to hold on to
distance with no end is all love put me through
an inadequate and emotionally impoverished soul
the pieces that never really fit into a whole
walking into the wind with nothing left to show
holding back the tears in the process of letting go
Sunday, July 4, 2010
In Her Passing
A woman of strength who held us all together through the years
A woman who faced the challenges and stood up against her fears
So gentle, and so kind, she embodied so much I wished I could be
One light of God that will always shine down on you and me
Her loving touch, her patient ways, something we all could learn
She gave us so much love and never asked for anything in return
A gift from heaven manifested here on this earth for a short while
It was amazing to hear her laugh and to watch her smile
In the best of times and the worst of times she was always there
And even in our darkest hour she comforted our despair
To her, we could do no wrong and she always tried so hard to make a fit
And even when our hope was lost her smile was there in spite of it
She was the wind beneath so many wings
And in our hearts her song forever sings
In her passing nothing will ever be the same
But she would want us to smile every time we hear her name
07/01/10 –For Hazel Moody
By: Your Grandson (Billy Wilder)
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
The only part of Me
crawling in between the damned and the divine
sorrow left to weep at the grave of time
impugned with nothing less than hypocracy
eviscerated everything that was meant to be
a stolen moment without so much as a care
a hidden secret causing memories a scare
it was once written now a lingering lie
among the fallen wishing to be high
a common symptom to a problem that is in the mirror
with each day of distance it can't get any clearer
within my own thoughts there must be a compromise
within my own heart It's me I really despise
spoken upon the lips of whispering winds
in destitution there is only sins
there is no mystery, there is nothing to see
there is nothing here, it's the only part of me
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Meant To Last
fine tuning the process of alienation allows life to be neglected
nauseated by the choices that are left to be selected
addiction screams loudly but I am the only one who can hear it
conviction makes a mockery in the fact that I fear it
rotting in decay is the promise that you once made
in the twilight of finality I watch the glitter fade
I once believed
now deceived
I was able to stand
only to be damned
incoherent ramblings describe the calls
the ravenous feed on my soul as the curtain falls
a karmic remedy of the witches brew
a memory that forgets what I once knew
holding on to the razor that cuts the pills
your kiss is the pain that so beautifully kills
your words a nightmare left for my eternity
your love was the end, the final death of me
now in a shell with the ghosts of a past
a curse of corruption that was meant to last
Monday, May 17, 2010
truth in my hell
it’s in the darkness just beyond the trees
where the truth of my heart lives and breathes
broken, damned and sentenced to the living
fallen behind with no chance to be one of the giving
a dark knight who holds his head low amidst his failing
a song that's darker than black comes from the wailing
it’s lonely here and I’m just a step beyond reach
stuck with the knowledge that nothing is left to teach
fighting a fight that isn’t worth fighting for
an angel of light left heartache at my door
the only sight left to see is the shadows of the past
the only breath left to breathe is the last
karma came and left me in tears with the bill
I’m the joke of tomorrow and my lover’s last kill
she was the saving grace that I lost along the way
the last smile was when she left me that day
this epic journey of what wasn’t to come
a tail of sadness at what is left undone
to who can read beyond what is before you
find the truth in my hell as I bid all adieu
where the truth of my heart lives and breathes
broken, damned and sentenced to the living
fallen behind with no chance to be one of the giving
a dark knight who holds his head low amidst his failing
a song that's darker than black comes from the wailing
it’s lonely here and I’m just a step beyond reach
stuck with the knowledge that nothing is left to teach
fighting a fight that isn’t worth fighting for
an angel of light left heartache at my door
the only sight left to see is the shadows of the past
the only breath left to breathe is the last
karma came and left me in tears with the bill
I’m the joke of tomorrow and my lover’s last kill
she was the saving grace that I lost along the way
the last smile was when she left me that day
this epic journey of what wasn’t to come
a tail of sadness at what is left undone
to who can read beyond what is before you
find the truth in my hell as I bid all adieu
Saturday, March 20, 2010
Beyond My Lips
Up came an epiphany of grandeur in the soliloquy of my demise
Short lived after the past of bad blood presented its compromise
It spoke so sweetly while bearing the bad news
Like the sting of pleasure from the alcoholic sipping the booze
The demons in my head once arrested during a traffic stop
But now loose and on the run back to the top
Blood boils cold with my head to some doomsday prophecy
Alone inside finding comfort there’s nothing left of me
No song to sing
No pain to bring
No yesterday
No come what may
Fallen short of glory, left to the penance of the plain
Gone the extra mile to reach a face with no name
Eluding is the chance to avoid the cataclysm riding in on the storm
Embracing the darkness left in the broken promise of its truest form
It’s the plundering of loneliness during the madness of this eclipse
Though I speak into the silence, not a word is heard beyond my lips
Short lived after the past of bad blood presented its compromise
It spoke so sweetly while bearing the bad news
Like the sting of pleasure from the alcoholic sipping the booze
The demons in my head once arrested during a traffic stop
But now loose and on the run back to the top
Blood boils cold with my head to some doomsday prophecy
Alone inside finding comfort there’s nothing left of me
No song to sing
No pain to bring
No yesterday
No come what may
Fallen short of glory, left to the penance of the plain
Gone the extra mile to reach a face with no name
Eluding is the chance to avoid the cataclysm riding in on the storm
Embracing the darkness left in the broken promise of its truest form
It’s the plundering of loneliness during the madness of this eclipse
Though I speak into the silence, not a word is heard beyond my lips
Friday, March 19, 2010
The Aftermath
talented tongues have kept me waiting on truth that was stuffed in a biodegradable farce
so many of us wading in time, keeping a distance, now that love is preciously sparse
changed my order just to keep up with time remembering the night that we laid
I am just starting to feel my heart again after the years of devastation that I paid
broken by reality and how you couldn’t love us enough to give me a tomorrow
inundated by being misunderstood and hated by so many while grasping sorrow
an epic love of such proportion it took every piece of all the puzzles I had on the table
there is no fairytale ending, a love so great and a burning passion merely a fable
it makes me laugh, while watching the demons dance in nightmares I knew all along
condemned, damned and without you were the lyrics you would write to our song
sanity stolen by the eaters of the dead, yes the chosen few that speak on the walls
watching time rape the best of me as the sacred land within my heart falls
so many of us wading in time, keeping a distance, now that love is preciously sparse
changed my order just to keep up with time remembering the night that we laid
I am just starting to feel my heart again after the years of devastation that I paid
broken by reality and how you couldn’t love us enough to give me a tomorrow
inundated by being misunderstood and hated by so many while grasping sorrow
an epic love of such proportion it took every piece of all the puzzles I had on the table
there is no fairytale ending, a love so great and a burning passion merely a fable
it makes me laugh, while watching the demons dance in nightmares I knew all along
condemned, damned and without you were the lyrics you would write to our song
sanity stolen by the eaters of the dead, yes the chosen few that speak on the walls
watching time rape the best of me as the sacred land within my heart falls
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