Monday, April 15, 2013

Will I Fall Tomorrow?

My selfishness
makes it
to give.

My immaturity
makes it
to live.

makes me
my own martyr.

Earning a
none the smarter.

Normal life
make it
with such ease.

seem to be
such a tease.

Did I fall
or will
I fall tomorrow?

Death's embrace
takes away
pain and sorrow.

with agony
makes life

the choice
I would've

just for a moment.

and damned,
my finest atonement.


Sunday, April 14, 2013

Who You Despise

In darkness
you left me here
alone with my lies.

My sunshine,
my angel
now it's me
who you despise.

The ancient ones
wrote the voice
you chose
to hear.

My haunting
inundated me
with fear.

Your love
gave life
to go on.

gave way
to no song.

I cry
in your arms
in dreams.

It's true
that misery
is all I have
it seems.

I remember
your eyes
as they
my soul.

I know
your lies
to get
and be whole.

No fault
do I find
in the
passing of time.

No reasoning
was left
why you
would be mine.

A love
left broken
on the side
of the road.

True love
left stolen
to be told.

Saturday, April 13, 2013

Nor Did I Will it So

Awakened in cold sweat
at the sky.

I looked in the mirror
asking myself why.


Too cold to touch
too hot to handle 
is always the deal.

Lost in memory

in the present moment
I kill.


I thought
I had swagger
felt too stupid
to go with it.

I saw

the dagger
held open my arms
to end this shit.


It missed.

I'm pissed.

that scorches
the sky
sends me into sleep.

that comes
and I'm falling in too deep.


The magic
in her eyes
burned every waking thought
I once had.

Passing moments
break apart the living
I am mad.


If you only knew
the depth
of poison
that my soul drowns in.

Then you would 
go away too
leaving me
to die in my own sin.

My path,
not created
by my own hands
nor did I will it so.

selfish ones
birthed hatred 
unable to let it go.

My prison, 
my cage,
started in the womb.

My liberty,

my freedom,
only found in my tomb.

Friday, April 12, 2013

A Final Lesson

I've said it before
so many times
in so many different ways.
You've seen it once more
in the rhetoric
of what the unjust plays.

I try to understand
truths of love but
your all just hypocrites
with an angle.

Grab that book again
preach from it
to tighten the noose
from which I strangle.

You enjoy my pain
by keeping me
bound to this place.
You have a knack
for such revelry
in your own distaste.

I want to go home
I was not meant to be.

I want to go home
your love is death to me.

You put the pieces
of your puzzle
together so well.
My pieces
fall apart
in my living hell.

My convalescence
with your hate
that I was born
will never coincide.
 Leave me be
to a final lesson
taught through 
my suicide.

Monday, April 1, 2013

we are not prisoners

you have known me many lifetimes and we have yet to become united

i kiss your lips in dreams only to wake to another day undecided

looking into your eyes is like looking into heaven above

from the minute I saw you, it was the first time I laid my eyes on love

you won't let me in but you won't shut me out and all I can do is stand still

you protect yourself so soundly and guard your heart with an unbreakable will

i can only smile and love you from a far because I would never change who you are

yet, I know that together we could become the union of souls that makes a shining star

touching you is a perfect balance that can make the world right more than we realize

i see your faces, they are all beautiful, even the ones you use for disguise

no matter what the future holds I knew that in one moment you had my heart

I will gladly wait a million lifetimes to hold you and give my first true love a start

soul-mates is what we are and you may not want to recognize it because you 
are afraid to see

but in the love of soul-mates we are not prisoners, our love is what sets us free

you are the most beautiful creature and in everything about you there is no blemish or flaw

so until that day comes or if it never does I'll still be waiting and watching you with wonder and awe