Monday, October 24, 2011
and reaches beyond the rhetoric of time.
Coming to fruition
a distance hanging on the premise that you were mine.
Every moment dictated and handed down
of who not to be and what not to do.
Competition so fierce
that we are both blinded to what is really true.
to a love turned bitter with regret
Fastening the seat belt,
leaving the last bet.
I took his face and his name
while being crucified under the existence of the past.
talking it over with the spirits a tiny stretch until the last.
You can't let it go,
to see differences and respect what is.
I can't hold on,
to see differences and respect what is.
A battering ram of destruction becoming inflamed
with resentment sets off the battle.
Calling out in the middle of the night
as the ancient makers of dreams round us up like cattle.
Just one small battle
that is part of an unending war
fought in the mirror.
Just one more pill man
and I swear
this picture will become clearer.
Caught up in the grips of a vice
that is more precious to you than we seem to be.
Stolen moments of pain
placed upon each other
from some old memory.
There is no room
and the hangar is stuck into my side.
Defeated every morning,
I am stripped of all my pride.
and everything has come to pass.
Breaking the cycle,
doing something different
is the only way we can last.
Tears roll down my cheeks
as I face the plain sight of it.
Hoping we can change
and not just quit.
Thursday, August 11, 2011
conformity to none
cutting loose the old flames
our freedom was won
amongst the madness
your heart sang a song
calling out to be whole
and I came along
looking in the mirror
love is complete
worth the price
of so many defeats
love so crazy
dancing in my head
your body so perfect
in our bed
our darkness balanced
with each others light
a peace within us
now calming the night
I had no hope
standing in the rain
singing her song
my sunshine came
I see in you
the you in me
i believe in you
as you believe in me
within each kiss
I try so hard to say
I'll be by your side
forever and a day
Thursday, July 21, 2011
Tuesday, June 14, 2011
i find myself smiling,
Uncertain of sanity
trying not to win.
By the road I was left to live
the life of a broken man.
You sat down next to me
and offered me your hand.
The words spoken so plain,
they made me feel alive.
My wounds so deep,
you offered me
a reason to survive.
You bring me a peace
I have never known.
Your heart is a place
that I yearn
to call my home.
I see you
I know you
your darkness is my kind.
through out the space of time.
Hold back no more
let me give you
whatever is left of me to give.
In my kiss
feel the embrace of love,
the love I want you to live.
Monday, April 25, 2011
God… we've never had a conversation,
like the one we're having tonight.
I've never been so scared to death
that I might not get it right.
I've always watched the bridges burn
and now I could use a friend.
until I found everything sin.
I kept circling the cul-de-sac,
by the house of selfish pain,
and with every chance taken,
I'm always standing out in the rain.
I never saw the stage,
I defied the role I had to play.
Each heart was horribly slain
when no longer it could stay.
If there was light,
then it was only darkness I would be
Fought so hard to break the man in the mirror,
my only enemy.
Time after time,
I stood against the world for the shock value of it.
Anything that would hurt me
I would always love it.
Tonight everything's changing
as tears finally fall,
And as I speak my heart I’m in awe
from the truth of it all.
She needs me God, I cannot fail,
though that's what I always do.
How do I overcome while still paying
on Karmic debt that's owed to you?
If there is anything that can be done
or anything I could say,
please help me, for her little heart,
help me find way.
Help me find a way to love,
to change from the inside out.
In hopes that she never has to be
any part of what I'm about.
I have to know that there's something better in me
than this time I've spent.
Making a difference in her
is the only chance I have to repent.
Also, if there is a way,
please let my victims know...
how sorry I am
to have hurt each of them so.
Saturday, March 19, 2011
crossed over the past to reach what it was before
there's a moment when madness sings through the mask of freedom
it's devastating where that infinite truth is gonna lead em'
up the road and back again just to find something to do
still reveling in the old days when it wasn't through
it was life's alarm clock ringing that gave ambition a migraine
the fables that reached grandiosity now fallen prey to the insane
the bible belt, a little too tight, when you hung me with it
calmed down a just a bit when the nightmare lifted
just around the corner I see the ghosts again rounded up like cattle
there's the cowboy killer, the preacher man sitting lead in his saddle
turned against the cold wind to see what's left on easy street
strutting through the fire and clinging to the savage heat
there was destiny in the womb cutting my deal to lose
a king with a loveless court without one choice left to choose
only a fragmented hope left that exudes such litheness
a reason to travel on in the eyes of my adore, my princess
getting back in the drivers seat and clearing the cobwebs for the ride
her purpose offers sanity to a broken man that clings to a fools pride
hell hath come lately and I braced myself for the impact
saliva and juice from a channel crazed witness kept the lies intact
before each dimension is the underlying seam with no meaning
staggering injustice stood against a backdrop that was leaning
a measuring cup of fury made the anonymous infirmary nervous and shaken
the announcement delayed while in quotations I am again forsaken
an unborn epiphany caused a line to form around the rabbit hole
cauterized by the tourniquet but still blood pours from my soul
the ladies night idolized and fantasized to a point that settling seems unlikely
sharpened the edge of Karma as you spit in my face just to spite me
each glass raised filled with toxicity that dilutes truth to another form
a reckoning that mimics lightning crashing in the eye of the storm
open and wounded as the prayers and best wishes were sent overnight
the battle you rage on but I stick to and keep love in sight
the gifted unbound sitting in the graveyard collecting bones
a crew that chastised each other banding together and casting stones
the circumcision left incomplete for a spot between the injunction
calming under siege the post partum penance leaves an inability to function
a mêlée where the malice was used and held high as if a trophy of war
a broken conscience that still, when reaching for help, seems a little sore
chanting the irrefutable in a duplicated pattern through the centuries
staging and caging drew a battle line but I see only mirrors as enemies
Friday, March 18, 2011
a calming calamity seals the fate of forbidden damnation
it calls under the voices trapped inside
no place is safe to run and hide
the imperious notion to live again will breathe it's last breath
the sad devotion forms a line awaiting a complacent death
in the night it burns deep and makes you cringe
headed for another relentless binge
a call made to the team set for an intervention
fallen into the arms of an eluded dissention
she knows not the secrets beyond our ancient time
if only this magick could make it all mine
grasping at straws, there is but only one left to pull
gnawing inside and the flesh leaves me full
the touch of her body left passion choking for more
embraced isolation makes me the undermined whore
held in captivated silence
is justified defiance
an echoed memory keeps me hovering on to you
the lust is all that I have left to go through
did I speak clearly or were you just playing it off to rejection sister
you played top in an undertow below a fathom of rhetoric mister
the plague spread and the sex was wild but I didn't get any
the ideal was in the arena for combat and taken by many
in no uncertain terms was it to be coded to an embedded encryption
an unjust soldier of passionate dreams is my fitted description
time and again we've stood in the circle of each moment
we still don't understand even though someone's already shown it
it's a blue flame that sets the pieces of what was left on fire
just as the play was made you put it away to retire
incomplete is the unspoken union collaborated in the night
bred for game playing and unable to gain hold of truth in sight
visions of shattered dreams that dance in midnight clouds above
etched in fiberglass was the epitaph of one's long lost love
if you knew me well, then why do you slaughter my character so
if it was unspoken the whispering winds then this rain wouldn't blow
indescribable structures in the mind are built through financing
with a rush on the street to see what pain I'm romancing
a loner by circumstance who can't see when he's near a ledge
not playing the miserable card today I faced the mirror just over the edge
catatonic episodes after I ate of the fruit that was forbidden
and though I need someone's company I always keep it hidden